College Friends
I actually thought that my college friends are mad at me. After not answering a single text message or call, I actually thought they gave up on me. We've been friends since second year college. I've known Auda since we were still Management Accounting students (1st year) as just a classmate, and Hanna during my course shift. It was quite fun having them around for the past years of studying. Auda has been very supportive to me, encouraging and uplifting me every time I feel like I'm not any good in doing activities at school. It's quite good actually, though most of the time I resist what she has been doing for me. I resist to listen carefully on what she has been trying to say, like her advices and encouragement. I still made a choice, to not do or even try my best in things. I admire Hanna because she remains reserved in things. She doesn't easily give trust or she doesn't just open things up. I guess I admire her because of this since I easily trust people. She is also very humble, a down to earth person.
Though, things change. I changed. I don't go out with them anymore. I choose going home or going out alone rather than staying even just for a while,to talk with them. What I have known for the past relationships (friendship) I've encountered, I have always this space. There is always a time for me, to be distant to the people around me.
What a me, ey?
Old Friends
I don't know why but I just miss my old buddies. Namely Clyde who has been a part of my life for a long time. We've been together since grade school and I'm used to seeing him around even though we don't spend time together always. It's sad though that he was not able to come to school this semester. It's somehow ironic I guess that someone like him who lacks financial support is more willing to get in to school than someone like me who has all the resources yet choosing not to go to school. I also miss Kharlo and his stories... He used to call me often and update me 'bout his experiences. We three used to hang-out a lot... at home or in malls... eating and gossiping? hehe.
I miss the days when I get to talk to my girlfriends. Some of them are far from here. One of them got married and already has a cute daughter. My bestfriend on the other hand is busy with her college life, getting a good record as a student nurse. I miss the days when I used to play arcade games with my two best guy buds. One is on Australia and the other one is married with one cute daughter.
Too bad we can't be together like we used to be. Though the memories I have still reminds me how it really feels to have good friends.
An Invitation
I would like to take this opportunity to invite you guys to join or just try the IRC server where I always go to. Well... we are actually finding ways how to encourage more people to join our server since it seems like regular chatters and the old chatters have stopped getting online. I guess they are busy with their real life. We welcome people who are from different places and of different ages. So do try to join irc chatx server (type /server irc.chatx.net on your mIRC status). For more information about our server, try visiting my links.
And oh... I am using the nick sUmMeR in chatx. See you there! ^_^
New Blabber
Hi ^_^ I am back here in tblog (which I have left years ago). My former blog wasn't that good anymore that's why I dumped it. I became limited in that blog I guess. I have deleted some posts there which my boyfriend didn't like because some people might misunderstand or judge me.
Well... I have made a lot of blog accounts. I guess I just change my mind often in what posts I should submit. I sometimes have a hard time expressing my feelings and thoughts. That is just like me in person, I find things difficult to say and I am actually not a good "explainer".
Any how, my blog will be containing my personal experiences, thoughts, and feelings. For the past blogs I have made, I usually dwell on sad things in my life. I just wonder though if anybody will get interested about that matter.
So yeah... I'll be bugging this new blog of mine maybe for years or just weeks I guess. hehe.
See you around ^_^